The End of this World
...is just around the corner.
I've decided to shut down the back burner. I've loved the experience. And occasionally not loved it.
But I've recently been keenly aware that my original intent with this blog --
to simmer back burner ideas to fruition....
(particularly, back in those days I was thinking of a microcinema)
-- has given way entirely to (best case) keeping in touch with long distance (by geography or time) family and friends and (worst case) to providing a constant "flow" of content to a nebulous audience of hits, loads, servers, operating systems and geographic regions...
It's an odd sociological experience to have an expression of yourself floating in cyberspace available to friends, family, strangers & acquaintances. If you like to manage face (and I, unfortunately do), you begin to feel panicked whenever your cyborg self has been frozen in some maniacal grin or snide critique for more than a day.
There was a month where I went to my friend Brian's blog every day and he said, "things are getting better."
and part of me knew that he just wasn't blogging anything new, but another part thought: Geez! How good can it get for him!
But of course, its better to be frozen in a happy, bounding upward motion than in the swirl of downward feelings that so many bloggers end up disappearing into
And this pressure of expressing something which is more NOW and therefore more AUTHENTIC is sometimes exhausting. But, more than anything, I'm keenly aware of the fact that I'm not doing enough of the writing projects that I *really* want to, and sometimes I'm hiding from that fact by writing toward the more immediately gratifying blogosphere....
So I'll miss this avenue of communicating with you -- but I hope we'll find other ways to keep in touch?
Shut down date is scheduled for the 17th. That's two years after the earliest archived entry. Which seems like a nice whole and complete way to bring closure. Thanks for reading. Its been a great boon to see the hits of friends and family and I know that eyes that return to any place on the web are either a compliment or a sign of great friendship. Whichever yours are, I thank you.
peace~
I've decided to shut down the back burner. I've loved the experience. And occasionally not loved it.
But I've recently been keenly aware that my original intent with this blog --
to simmer back burner ideas to fruition....
(particularly, back in those days I was thinking of a microcinema)
-- has given way entirely to (best case) keeping in touch with long distance (by geography or time) family and friends and (worst case) to providing a constant "flow" of content to a nebulous audience of hits, loads, servers, operating systems and geographic regions...
It's an odd sociological experience to have an expression of yourself floating in cyberspace available to friends, family, strangers & acquaintances. If you like to manage face (and I, unfortunately do), you begin to feel panicked whenever your cyborg self has been frozen in some maniacal grin or snide critique for more than a day.
There was a month where I went to my friend Brian's blog every day and he said, "things are getting better."
and part of me knew that he just wasn't blogging anything new, but another part thought: Geez! How good can it get for him!
But of course, its better to be frozen in a happy, bounding upward motion than in the swirl of downward feelings that so many bloggers end up disappearing into
And this pressure of expressing something which is more NOW and therefore more AUTHENTIC is sometimes exhausting. But, more than anything, I'm keenly aware of the fact that I'm not doing enough of the writing projects that I *really* want to, and sometimes I'm hiding from that fact by writing toward the more immediately gratifying blogosphere....
So I'll miss this avenue of communicating with you -- but I hope we'll find other ways to keep in touch?
Shut down date is scheduled for the 17th. That's two years after the earliest archived entry. Which seems like a nice whole and complete way to bring closure. Thanks for reading. Its been a great boon to see the hits of friends and family and I know that eyes that return to any place on the web are either a compliment or a sign of great friendship. Whichever yours are, I thank you.
peace~
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posted by Redbaerd at 10:27 PM
6 Comments:
and sometimes both. :) M
are you serious? it's unfortunate. I enjoy our "one-sided conversation" because so often I don't respond. Anyway I enjoy hearing and reading your thoughts on the web.
wanted to let you know that Josh Elek and I are getting together Joseph's on Saturday night at 8pm. Would love it if you could come. Let me know.
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son of a &$%%! Mother @#TYH**!
This is the end of *my* world.
This is why I turn on my laptop in the morning. What am I supposed to do now? My own work?
You have no right.
I'll sue.
Stranger cases have been one.
17th shmeventeenth.
Andy- While cleaning out my inbox earlier this evening, I came across an e-mail from Lynn that mentioned your blog. I've had it on the "back burner" of my mind to check this out, because anything you have to say intrigues, perplexes and entertains me! So, I finally take the time to delve into your world only to find out it is the last day of your blog! It certainly has been fun to read bits and pieces over the last hour or so (I will pay for this in the morning!), and it makes me want to reconnect. I really miss you and Lynn. I'll have to come back and continue piecing together your lives from the last 2 years when I have the chance! Much love to you all!
Thanks, (M)arcia, Erik, anonymous (Daniel/the Moron), Katie, Tara, John, Roya, Marcaus & all the other kind responding friends,
for your affirming words. I probably will be blogging again later / eventually. But I'm probably going to try to avoid it as much as possible for the summer (to try to push myself toward more productivity in other writing). I'll let you know when / if /where I start blogging again.
I will miss it, but hope that it doesn't mean that I have to miss you. I'll read your blogs, and/or hope we write letters more, have coffee more, drink more beer together, spend luxurious summer nights in long conversations...
but seriously. thanks.
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