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Friday, September 03, 2004

watching here from there

partial cross post from my media class blog

my wife's pastor's daughter was one of the campers killed on a beach in San Francisco. Obviously its been a bad time for her family and her hometown and for her, too. It seems horrible and senselesss.

One of the wierd parts of the whole experience though has been watching and listening to the ways that reporters construct a vision of where Lindsay was from...which is also where Lynn is from.

Fresno, Ohio is, according to one writer, an idyllic little hamlet where everyone knows everyone else's names. One reporter sent to the "heartland" from the coast, walked all through the streets of Fresno with Gary, my father in law, getting to know the place.

This picture was taken from the cemetery where they walked together.



The caption reads:

Fresno, Ohio, Lindsay Cutshall's home, is a tree-covered town of about 100 residents -- if you count the dogs and cats.

It's interesting and remarkable to be viewed as the exotic other....To be the subject of the camera lens...the Object of national (or at least Californian -- and lets face it, what's the difference?) attention.

It makes me think about how rare visions of the heartland are in the major media. It makes me think about how strange and odd these representations make the midwest out to be. It makes me think about how idyllic and romanticized the mythology of "Small Town America" continues to be.

On the other hand...its all true. That picture is really how it looks to drive around on the old bus route that took Lynn to school, and when you look out her bedroom window. It's all beautiful perfect rolling hills and white barns and curvy lanes that lead to century homes.

People really do bring one another dinner if they hear that someone has a cold and people spend all night harvesting their neighbor's field. The barter economy thrives there. On one errand run, Gary (Lynn's dad) and I dropped off a skunk trap to a farmer up the road, looking in on the neighbor two doors up who was fixing Gary's bulldozer, picked up the lawnmower who a friend had tinkered with and dropped off some special wrench to a second cousin. The fabric of relationships is so thick that people can really truly depend upon each other.

Which is a beautiful, nostalgia inducing world.

But one of the dimensions of this world that has only been portrayed in sweeping charichetures in the media is the sort of gentle suffocation that goes on in these worlds. It's so slow and subtle that only the overly sensitive get to watch it. So imperceptible that you're more likely to happen to catch the moment when a rose opens her petals.

Bridges of Madison County and Footloose and All the Real Girls (what a combination...) all dramatize it well -- but the subtlety of it is so nuanced that i don't know whether it could even be captured on a screen...

can you, readers, think of worthy representations to correct my rash claims?

posted by Redbaerd at 3:29 PM 0 comments

Administrivia

I spent most of yesterday swimming through it, yesterday. Part of the time I kept telling myself: Every unexceptional task and laborious detail that I can devote my labors to completing effectively and in a "missional" way (how very fast-company of me), means that the world will have a little more justice and mercy in someone's very real and lived existence.

And I believe that. (not for all administrivia -- but if you adminsterTOWARD the ends of goodness...)

But then there are these other moments when my rolling chair is scooted back, and I'm trying to get a birds eye view of the pressing tasks that are filling my desk. So what do I do? Sort (of course).

Here are the names of my piles:

1. REALLY really vital, must do before I go home.
2. Really quite vital must do within a week.
3. These things need three holes punched in them.
4. I should file these things sometime, but their homes are too deep to file them right now.
5. These need to be filed in the immediatly pressing pile, but the files that they need to be filed in aren't IN the immediatly pressing pile, so I've got to do something else with them.
and:
6. send this to somebody else.

Jay calls number 6 the Calvin Coolidge approach to leadership.

and the absurdity of this particular task and these particular divisions is not lost on me...and I think to myself, self?! what are you doing here? Who invented a world shaped like this for people to live in?

In one of my favorite novels _All the Names_ (Jose Saramago), the main character is a clerk who does nothing but shelve files and sort files.

What kind of dreams do you have if you do that all day long?

posted by Redbaerd at 6:09 AM 1 comments

Thursday, September 02, 2004

okay, i'll bite

since the rhetoric is everywhere -- i'll ask the big unasked question:

why *do* we need a Strong Inflexible Offensive leader in the face of terrorism?

....

i guess in my mind the bigger question is:

who, exactly are "we"? is our leader supposed to protect the interests only of the people in his own country? And with violence?

....

posted by Redbaerd at 7:01 AM 4 comments

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

I am a stew pot

more than a series of well defined burners -- the different components of my life are mingled together in a pot where some tastes are distinguishable, others are not.

school has started up again and this profession of teaching is astonishing in the ways that it leaks outside of the boundaries of the classroom.

it seems that to me, the longer you do it, the more integrated the acts of teaching become with yourself. my friend Dan the psychologist was talking to me the other day about how that lack of boundaries can be a dangerous place.

i agree.

the bummer is that as a dangerous place, its also a rewarding place. the students who i would call friends now -- after years of not being a "teacher" to them anymore....are people who are rewarding to know, interesting to learn about, fascinatingly unique and complex.

so one of the feelings of school starting is that all of the non-school parts of my life suddenly feel very "back burner"...

but....its time to get Jaelyn ready for her second day of kindergarten...

peace~

posted by Redbaerd at 7:22 AM 1 comments

Sunday, August 29, 2004

toogle fun

at the prompting of Joho, experimented with Toogle.

It quickly became a competition for me. How could I outsmart the robot?

I gave up (realizing the addictive possibilities), but most appreciated its response to my query:

"Phrenology."

posted by Redbaerd at 6:46 AM 0 comments

Happy Birthday, David!

It's Coach's Birthday today...so the back burner is firing back up to offer a shout out to my brother who gives me a serious run for my money when it comes to identity shifting.



You may have bounced into his blog at any given time over the past year and found it to be the annals of a pirate bus looting on the freeways of indiana, a diatribe holding forth on the virtues of Walmart, an examination of the doctrinal heritage of the early church or -- the current, and pretty darn interesting incarnation:

a little grass roots run for the presidency.

you still didn't know, though, from the blog that he's a short story writer, an apologist, a rapper, a trumpeter, an athlete, a champion debater, a timothy award winner, a christian cowboy, a golfer, dad, husband, and of course, a great brother.



So i'm thinking about giving him a great birthday present: his longtime wish -- that our family quit our jobs and become a fulltime crime family....



it sure would be a good way to get out of finishing writing these syllabi...

happy birthday, coach!

posted by Redbaerd at 1:20 AM 1 comments

warmed over leftovers

  • who *is* my neighbor?
  • broken things
  • a vanilla shake afterwards
  • fading sense of destiny
  • turtle shells & suffocation
  • love and death in every little thing
  • project: take back eden
  • still taking back eden...
  • a tedious discovery
  • change of address
  • the end of the line
  • sunday afternoons in realty
  • where he came from
  • soundtracks and set pieces
  • what's the secret, max?
  • top two christmas presents
  • size matters
  • rabbit trailing
  • secret agent visits
  • the robots are coming!
  • saturday! finally!
  • snapshots of marital bliss
  • jonathon montgomery are you listening?
  • memory in a pan
  • moving the frig
  • get rich quick scheme
  • fear not / choose love
  • i am what / i wear / what i am
  • spirituality
  • when the naked guy puts his clothes on
  • into the shit
  • poor & oppressed
  • waiting
  • peace vs. ( )
  • buddha & thirst
  • ambivalent luck
  • 10 things i'm "into"
  • dreaming cedarville college
  • adding to apocrypha
  • the smell of bacon everywhere
  • sparkling clean septic systems
  • mugging
  • limin
  • rites of passage
  • status & solidarity
  • nametags & academic culture
  • longing together
  • alt.story
  • nobody's called me
  • vocation in the accidents of their work
  • difficult to hear God
  • the luxury of pondering calling
  • re-solving
  • announcing the end
  • the last post

blogs i read

  • David
  • Cliff
  • the waalkes fam
  • Mike & Jenn
  • Marcaus
  • Breathing Hope
  • Nate
  • Josh
  • Christian
  • Anti Onion Katie
  • Skylark
  • Brian
  • KatieSams
  • Kelly
  • Jared
  • Toph
  • Hula Girl Blues
  • Kev

more about me

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  • My Work Identity
  • My Employer
  • Lynn
  • My sister
  • My Dad
  • My Mom

curious about culture

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  • scott mccloud
  • doug rushkoff
  • media ecology
  • mcluhan and wireless
  • ong and wireless
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  • pop cult mag
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      alt.story

      • locus novus
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      • artfish film
      • bull fight review
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      • zenvirus flash fiction
      • flashquake
      • vestal review
      • Yan Nascimbe's art
      • aiming for shalom

        • Sojourners
        • the hunger site
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        • trade justice movement
        • catholic teachings on social justice
        • increasing wealth disparity
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        • Race and the wealth disparity
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        • mennonite central committee

        life in ohio

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